Today im going to take it easy. Yes i don't work, dont do any volunteering and only have to look after 1 child who no longer is a needy-newborn.. but for some reason i just feel quite stressed. Sure my days are spent constantly on the move.. but my brain never shuts up! I blog in my head, i have planned conversations with people in my head that don't happen.. argh! Im not quite sure how i can shut my brain up.. but im going to give it a shot.I wish i had a backyard! *sigh* in the winter i love laying out in the sun! (but come summers heat and im more likely hiding out in the coolest room of the house be it the bathroom or the bedroom with a aircon (we have no aircon in this house tho another reason to move out before summer!)
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When Jenna noticed this pic on your blog as I was scrolling through she asked if you'd taken a picture of our fridge! (That's where I have this postcard I got at Borders was it when we were there)? I need to get another one as I want to send it as part of a "welcome to your new home" (to my sister and brother in law in Sydney).. and I'd like to keep the one on my fridge.
I can most certainly understand why you'd be strssed Tiffany. You do have responsibilities and you are without a support network pretty much (outside of your husband). Where are your outlets? I think socially you're quite isolated.. not having family/friends nearby. And you're a "work inside the home" Mum with not many adult contact points during your week I'm imagining? You're in a new city and making the best of things. Being a Mum is the biggest responsibility there is..and then there's being a wife. I can completely 'get' that you have planned conversations in your head..and stuff like that. I've been there.
I really hope you can find a 'home church' one day and it would be ideal if it were closer to home so you wouldn't have to travel so much to get there. So many doors can open up with a great church! My daughter and I have lived this.
I'm so glad that you have a computer and also a social network online at least. This will be a prayer point for me now I think.. to pray for you in this area actually.
You need more to do (for you personally) I think.. yes, you're stressed, but you're a very smart woman and you have talents that could benefit others and I'm guessing you'd need to utilise that creative and bright energy you have. I don't think it's being channelled from you as it was meant to be. You're like this 'hidden gem' in a way.. Not that what you're doing now isn't valuable. It must SO not be easy moving to another city in another state and just starting from scratch. I really admire you for that.
I can understand not just wanting a back yard..but NEEDING one. You need some space..but 'outdoor' space that you can call your own..and yes.. 'sun' yourself out there in winter!
I really do hope you find a nicer place with some air-con happening. We are blessed to have air-con here .. and a little backyard too.
I have a book that I can loan you maybe, Joyce Meyer's "Battlefield of the Mind".. not sure if you'd be interested in something like that? A Christian book.
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